Literally YOU starts with Y and ends with U, on the other side, there is a fact that if we would spell these letters, they would mean differently!
I really thought that my existence was for him! the answer to my never-ending WHY's. I always say to myself that it is YOU who answers every WHY of my thought, words and actions!
I just thought so because you were nice and emphatic! I really don't know! maybe you hurt me much when you made me think that i was not in a way or the other connected to your problems and that means i'm not one way or the other connected to your life!
there is no possible way to getting back into the past of fantasy. where lies and liars abound-this does not mean an escape from the adversities and cruel world but an attempt to leave behind people who should not be involved with the journey of my life! the things that can be faced with straight shoulders and straightforward vision is the reality of the Present!
Damn! T'was a hard bitter way clearing things OUT! it's the biggest of all the mistakes i've done so far in the half of my whole life!
T'was a hard bitter way out but I say it's ultimately effective! how could i just afforded myself to fooled around for such a long time! I pity myself, though I shoul not, Nevertheless, I pity that liar more! I admit that I'm also a liar! I was, I'm still and will always be a liar in no matter circumstance lie is needed for somebody's good or somebody's disgrace according to my subjective analysis! I grant punishment to those who've done wrong to me! I declare war against their substance as well as their souls! Unforgivig as I may appear but there is a big possibility that if i don't break things up with them or with him I will be the one to turn up broken at the end of the day!
Stupid me! Foolish them! He deceived me with such a facade of genuine friendship but it's a one-sided perception! I've poured thousand of tears over him! got to my feet and had to pull myself back again for a countless of times whenever troubles come before or after him! I may sound so selfish but I think if I would not be selfish I would totally be shattered into tiny pieces and who migth know? I'll never be able to regain nor vindicate myself!!!
Somebody might understand, mostly would not! this post is written for self expression and not derrogate anybody's personality! after all it's an intellectual property! I own this feeling and i have the right to express it!!!
the next time you fall for someone close to you, watch out! you may be deceived with an angelic smile behind that pretentious mask!!!beacuse there is no possible way to getting back into the past of fantasy. where lies and liars abound-this does not mean an escape from the adversities and cruel world but an attempt to leave behind people who should not be involved with the journey of my life! the things that can be faced with straight shoulders and straightforward vision is the reality of the Present!
